1, 2, mic check.

oh snap

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 08:59:30 GMT

well, i havent posted in an ass-long time. i'm moving to UNT in 17 days, i have a boyfriend that i incidentally dated in 9th grade at dallas academy, thats pretty crazy. i would say alot more, but my head is killing me. so yeah. peace, niggas.

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:12:05 GMT

my birthday is tomorrow!

bahhh!

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 13:19:46 GMT

wow its been a while indeed. i gots a new compy, thanks to kyle! yayyy! so last night was st. paddys, and it was quite interesting indeed. i got to see a softball game in a lightening storm. it wasnt scary at all. marcies birthday is in just a little bit, so thats cool. the big 2-3.

oh man. i wish i could go back to sleep.

cirque du soleil tonight!

laaaast night

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 06:32:28 GMT

last night was so awesome. its always good to see kyle. we went to the mall and looked to spend some gift cards from christmas, but found nthing but despair.

we then advanced to macaroni grill where i got bowtie pasta with tomato basil sauce and artichoke hearts. oh freakin lord. soooo good. we then went to movie trading company and freakin loaded up on movies. kyle is really sweet and bought me a "cheer up" present. thank you, kyah.

we then went to starbucks and found out that the girl that works there, Kimmy, who we see there all the time but never talk to, goes to christ for the nations and knows alot of my spag house friends. and then she gave me a cupcake.

it was awesome.

kyle and i listened to dane cook on the way home and laughed like little childrens. i miss him. its always so good to se him. and i will again tomorrow! yay!

IAN, YOU ARE THE BOMB, MY FRIEND. and you have cool hair.

this josh thing.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 07:31:21 GMT

1. WHAT WERE YOU DOING LAST NIGHT AT MIDNIGHT?: oh the phizzone with my boy josh.

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?: strappy blue/green shirt from abercrombie.

3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?: indeed.

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP 8?: "a thing"?

5.HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?: the vast majority.

6. DO YOU HOLD GRUDGES?: from time to time.

7. HAVE YOU EVER HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN?: ugh.. yes.

8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?: usually.

9. MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED IN THE THEATER?: match point with dustin.

10. NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES?: diamond ring, 2nd hole stud earrings(i always wear 1st hole except at night. hoop earrings hurt to lay on), lip gloss/burts bees.

11. WOULD YOu RATHER GIVE OR RECEIVE A FOOT MASSAGE?: both are kinda nasty. feet are gross. i love giving/getting back rubs, though

12. NAME A TEACHER YOU HAD THE HOTS FOR: mr. sexbody!

13. HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?: umm, none.

14. WHO'S THE 4TH PERSON ON YOUR RECEIVED CALL LIST!: Sam

15. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?: Hysteria by Muse.

16. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP?: 8. then had a big big nap.

17. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?: chatting it up with josh. via AIM.

18. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?: two if you count Jana. ;)

19. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?: i love having my hair played with.

20. FAVORITE CITY?: san francisco or vancouver.

21. FAVORITE COLOR?: blue

22. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT FOR?: february 19th, 2006

23. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?: when she told me goodnight.

24. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS?: usually so.

25. THE ONE THING YOU WANT MOST?: understanding. or patience. or both.

26. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?: this is selfish, but i would put $200,000 in savings and use the other 50 to go to college, buy a car and get an apartment.

27. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?: ive been slacking for about 18 years, now.

28. IS TOM ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?: naww.

29. LAST THING YOU SAID OUT LOUD?: yo mama!

30. LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED AND/OR KISSED?: last person i hugged was Kyle. last person i kissed was dustin.

31. LAST THING YOU SPENT OVER $100 ON?: textbooks.

32. WHAT KIND OF SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?: black reef flops.

33. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?: Jana's blue zip up hoodie.

34. I REALLY WISH I DROVE?: vw Cabrio, bmw 328i Convertable.

35. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?: myspace. im such a nerd.

36. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?: Jana.

37. DO YOU HAVE AN AIR FRESHENER IN YOUR CAR?: its got napoleon dynamite on it!

38. DO YOU HAVE ANY PLANTS IN YOUR ROOM?: no. i have plastic flower christmas lights, though.

39. FAVORITE DRINK?: rum & coke.

40. LAST E-MAIL RECIEVED?: myspace friend request. which i denied.

41. CURRENT PAIN IN/ON YOUR BODY?: head. back is sore.

42. LAST TAXI RIDE?: to the airport to leave san fran.

43. LAST ALCOHOLIC DRINK?: sangria.

44. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?: cry.

45. DO YOU OWN A CAMERA PHONE?: im not cool enough. i just play with Jana's.

46. WHAT ZODIAC SIGN IS YOUR BF/GF?: i dont have one

47. FAVORITE STARBUCKS DRINK?: double shot vanilla latte

48. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?: mushroom

49. DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE IN LOVE?: yes.

50. IF YOU ANSWERED YES, DO YOU THINK IT'S POSSIBLE TO FEEL THAT WAY AGAIN?: kinda doubt it.

51. IF YOUR BF/GF CHEATED ON YOU, WOULD YOU GIVE THEM A SECOND CHANCE?: depends on the situation, person, etc.

52. WHO IS THE BEST KISSER?: jana!

53. WHO IS THE BEST IN BED?: ::buzzing sound::

54. MOST RECENT TIME YOU WERE REALLY UPSET?: few days ago

55. ARE YOU THINKING OF SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?: yes.

biggie biggie biggie

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 07:46:20 GMT

dude. i hung out with dustin tonght. it was super fun. i had missed him. even though he wanted to listen to Notorious BIG rather than music that i had actually written.

"listen to this part. OH MAN! thats such a pimp part!"

this thing from christine

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 09:13:37 GMT

I am a cuddler. - most def

I am a morning person. - depends on the time. and ammount of coffee that ive had.

I am an only child. - nope

I am Catholic. - no way, jose.

I am currently in my pajamas. - yes, actually

I am currently pregnant. - i sure as hope not! (that was a joke, marcie)

I am currently single. - sure, why not?

I am currently suffering from a broken heart. - not so much

I am okay at styling other people's hair - im more of a makeup artist

I am left handed. - no. and right handed people live longer.

I am addicted to my myspace. - yes. and its gross. i need a life.

I am shy around the opposite gender at first - no, i get shy later.

I bite my nails. - eww. meme says that gives you worms.

I can be paranoid at times. - which of my enemies told you this?!

I currently have a crush on someone - i totally do. and its tearing me into little bitty pieces.

I currently regret something that I have done - yeah, unfortunately

When I get mad I curse frequently. - i curse frequently no matter the situation.

I don't like anyone. - i like few people.

I enjoy country music. - yuck.

I enjoy jazz music. - i do indeed!

I enjoy smoothies. - ooo, smoothies.

I enjoy talking on the phone - depends on who im talking to.

I have a car - yes. but my poor little baby's out of commission til i get that battery.

I have a cell phone - indeed. its name is frosty.

I have / had a hard time paying attention to what people are saying - no.

I have a hidden talent - im sure i do. but its hidden, so i dont know for sure.

I have a lot to learn - most definitely.

I have a pet - i have a dog named reggie and a cat named cali.

I have a secret that I'm ashamed/embarrased to reveal - umm, no.

I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy/girl - i dont "fall" for many guys OR girls.

I have all my grandparents - yes

I have at least one brother - umm. yes.

I have been to another country - i dont really count canada as a country.

I have been told that I am smart - most f'ing definitely.

I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor - its always kindof been understood that when i have to explain that the comment i made about unprotected sex and drugs is a joke that i have an unusual sense of humor.

I have OR HAD broken a bone - yes.

I have Caller I.D. on my phone - mmmhmmm

I have bathed someone - totally

I have changed a diaper - ew, yes.

I have changed a lot over the past year - i would say that im almost a completely different person than i was a year ago. barring the twisted sense of humor.

I have done something illegal - i plead the 5th

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color - hell no

I have had major/minor surgery - ive had stitches. thats about it.

I have killed another person - not that i am aware of...

I have had my hair cut within the past month - nooo

I have had the cops called on me - i dont think so

I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn't - yes

I have mood swings - i constantly ride a mood centerfuge.

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life - i have some idea.

I have rejected someone before - yes

I love to cook/bake - oh man yes!

I like to sing - totally

I love sleeping - i like it when i have a chance to.

I love to shop. - eww no

I miss someone right now. - oh my dear lord.

I own and use a library card - i lost that bitch like two days after i got it.

I strongly dislike math - math is for losers!

I will try almost anything once. - sure, why not?

I believe in myself - from time to time.

fun times

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 22:26:28 GMT

this has been a really cool week.

i was searching myspace and found my friend dustin, and i hung out with him last night. i hadnt seen him since i was in 9th grade, so it was kinda weird. but so awesome. hes a really cool guy. we also hung out with his best friend evan, who went to school with us too.

jimmy finally found his keys, so maybe ill get a chance to hang out with him soon, too.

marcie's wedding is freaking close. its nerve-wracking.

i'm bored.

title track

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 00:28:46 GMT

im bored. i start school wednesday, so this is my last official non-school night. i want someone to call me and offer to hang out. i feel like a loser calling people all the time and begging for their time. ive been worrying myself sick lately. i need a night of normalcy and craziness. i want my head to be spinning. i want to feel happy again. i want to be able to look someone in the eye. i want a hug. i need a slap in the face. i want this wedding to be over already. i also want a baked potato from jasons deli. comfort food, baby. i need to stop relying on dimetapp for sleep. i want to wake up rested. i want to see jana soon. i need my dad to trust me again. i want to not be responsible for someone elses feelings. i want a shot of tequilla. i need some chocolate. i want to lay in my bed and wake up when things are ok again. i want to feel safe. i need to get a job. i want silence.

but alas, wishing is for children and fools. so i digress.

i need to get over this.

registration

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 01:34:24 GMT

community college registration is hell. for serious. i had to stand in line for a wicked long time.

however, i did get registered and im excited. :)

first day of class, wednesday january 18th, 2006.

happy birfday daddy!

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 21:18:02 GMT

yayy daddy. happy birthday. much love to you.

anywho, new years always brings about new challanges and ideas. at the present it is school and making new friends and making ammends with the old ones. ive been hanging out with jana alot, and i realize why it is that i love her so much. shes so sweet and open. something she told me last night really got me thinking, though. im sure everything will be ok, i just need to figure some stuff out.

things have been so whacked lately. blah. im so ready for things to return to normal. fo shizzle.

as of right now, i feel as though my life is so freaking sheltered. it sucks major balls.

well, i guess i will return to watching tv and doing nothing.

oh yeah, happy birthday mike.

post x-mas blather

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 20:16:06 GMT

i hope that everyone has had a most excellent holiday. to all those celebrating hannukah, happy hannukah to you.

Suzanne's sister Michelle is getting married today. congrats.

i know i feel content, but i am kindof blank and empty right now.

i cant believe how close marcie's wedding is. its kindof ridiculous, actually. im excited for them. im glad that marcie is happy and im glad to have drew as a brother. it just seems that our lives are getting closer and closer to this fate that will change my small world.

Let me explain. Marcie is my only sister. we fight like all siblings and even friends do, but at the heart of the matter i love her more than anything. she is someone that i have always looked up to and respected. it seems like we are inching closer and closer to february 18th, and when that day comes its like everything has changed. i know that she wont live that far away, but she will still not live in the East wing with me. there will be an empty room at the end of the hall. i know that she will still be my sister, but she will also be Mrs. Dodd. she will be free and happy and thats so awesome. i dont expect her to take me with her, it would just be nice to know that im still going to be involved in her life. but then again, maybe im just paranoid. after all, im her sister. she cant get away that easily when blood is involved.

all i know is that when she pops out a kid, i am going to be the coolest aunt known to man.

wow, that was a super tangent. on that note...

the year in review.

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 15:39:06 GMT

so marcie, i totally took this from you, dawg.

January
It's 2005! yayyy! Happy New Year, kids!

February
happy anniversary, honey! thank you for the best year and 7 months ever!

March
i dont even want to go on this stupid damn trip to canada anymore. canada is overrated, as are canadians.

April
MUSE MAY 4TH!!!

my birthday is in 19 days!

yay!

oh, and i have the internet on my computer now!

double yay!

May
snap! its may!

June
its a brand new month. bitchin. I've been downloading old pop-punk music and sublime because it reminds me of good times. also, Reggie and the full effect is pretty freakin sweet. Thank you marcie for showing meeee.

It's an f'ing gorgeous day.

July
the past three or so weeks have been really hard on me. its like im running back and forth on an emotional cheese grater. there has been so much drama everywhere.

August
well, this is an interesting part of the year that i always kindof dread. summer is on it's last leg. real life must begin again in a couple of weeks. its a really stressful time for alot of my friends and i.

Tomorrow at 8 I leave for San Francisco. It's going to be way bitchin. I'm excited, but already looking forward to coming back home.

i have a Sprite in the freezer right now.

September
work is kinda fun! i have to wear a headset a la britney spears.

but thats not the fun part. people are cool. yeah.

November
its a whole new month. this calls for some life adjustments. and a big party. ali and i are thinking that we should have a party at moses' house. that would be major fun.

December
i cant freaking believe that this year is almost over!

ok you smart ones, i am aware that october is missing. and im not quite sure why it is. but yeah.

check it, danielle!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 02:03:35 GMT

What Makes You Sexy? by dollface04
Name
Gender
Physical Appearance	Your Eyes
Special Talents	Kissing

Quiz created with MemeGen!

this neat thing.

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 20:08:43 GMT

LJ Interests meme results

family:
they are fun to throw things at. plus, my daddy is the only person i know that has a similar twisted sense of humor like me.
kool aid.:
kool aid might be the most refreshing damned drink on the face of this planet. and flavor choices! koolaid is just plain delicious.
kyle :):
kyle is freaking delicious, much like kool aid. and hes damn hot.
moulin rouge:
this movie is a veritable feast for the eyes. plus, the music is incredible. and the costumes are sweet.
movies:
i think this is a no-brainer. honestly.
myself:
wow...im kindof embarassed by this one. i mean, who isnt interested in themselves. not in a strange or sexual way, but i think im pretty kick-ass.
radiohead:
radiohead is possibly the most perfect band of our time. try to find a flaw. its damn near impossible.
reggie:
reggie is one hawt dawg. hes my favorite puppy in our back yard.
rushmore:
jason schwartzman and wes anderson make this a must-see. i didnt like it the first time i saw it, but now i love it soooo much. its kindof ridiculous.
smashing pumpkins:
the smashing pumpkins are so versatile. one sweet kyle introduced me to their music. much awesomeness to be found here.

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

best weekend ever.

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 23:01:27 GMT

this weekend was bitchin! it was just what i needed. marcie and i drove to sherman(took like, all day) and picked up kyle so that we could go to the concert that night. we got to show marcie his room, which is really looking good now that Trang cleaned it, and drove us back to rockwall. we stopped at whataburger on the way home because we were freaking starving. we made our way back to his casa and ate our food, and then realized that our tickets were general admission, and that we were like an hour and a half away from the Ridglea theatre. so we hauled ass, and listened to Splender and rolled the windows down. it was such an exhilirating feeling. i felt infinite. we got to the place like 15 minutes before the doors opened, and right as we got there, they said, "form three lines, everybody". so kyle and i get in the front of the line! it was most awesome. and we got in and it was really just a cool time. we got some of the only actual seats in the house, which had a little bar and an ashtray right in front of us. the opening band was called "stars" and they were from montreal. they were really awesome. then Death Cab came on, and it was so magical. they played alot of their new stuff, but i said, "play company calls!" and they did! just like that! i felt very special. after the show, we went to jack in the box for some midnight breakfast, which was very satisfying. kyle dropped me at my house, and i had the best un-medicated sleep of my life.

saturday we decided to get an early start. kyle has decided to be obsessed with Taco Cabana lately, so we were all set to go there, and then i thought of Panera Bread which is right across the street from Northpark. kyle was muy hungry, so he ate a big salad aaand a big sammich. we walked all around the mall like, 6 times and then decided to go to rockwall and watch a bitchin movie. we rented "resident evil" and watched it at his house. it was kindof scary.

Sunday we had a family lunch planned, and kyle came. it was so awesome to have him there. ive missed him so much, and he has such a soothing presence. he is the yin to my yang. we got out of that early, and went to go eat and hang out at town easte. my boss was there, and he said that he saw me but i looked "serene" so he decided not to say anything to me. kyle called my mom and asked if i could go to sherman with him for a little while, and she let me go. it as so much fun. i got to hang out with Ian and Trang and Matt for a while, before Ian and Kyle drove me home. they are so much fun. im gonna get to spend a night over there pretty soon. hopefully when harry potter comes out.

I even got out of work early today! and Ali and Moses and I are going to hang out tonight! and i get paid tomorrow! things are too good to stay this way for very long. but what the hell, i'll take what i can get.

i love you, kyle.

novemby!

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 22:27:54 GMT

its a whole new month. this calls for some life adjustments. and a big party. ali and i are thinking that we should have a party at moses' house. that would be major fun.

last night kyle took ian and i to the cheesecake factory. it was super yummy. that chocolate cake is so good.

i feel so hollow. so empty. not even numb, just nothing. maybe im a nihilist.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 14:25:48 GMT

its been a really weird week. work has been a mess, and everything is just...bizarre.

last night i went to movie trading company and loaded up on movies. my little movie holder is completely full now. it makes me so proud.

i dont really have anything to say, but i got a request to make a post,so i did.

hope you enjoyed it.

strange and beautiful

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 21:02:59 GMT

i dont understand what i feel anymore. pain, stress, loneliness, interest, devotion, helplessness, confinement.

this time, its really gone. and i dont know what to think about that.

nothing ends up the way that i think it will. i certainly didnt expect for things to dissolve into this. we're better than this. we're smarter than this. we have too much fucking history for this to end this way.

i dont even want to think about whats unseen to me. i realize that i've lost this battle, but it still hurts.

i guess i really should just give up. is that what you want?

you were the topic of discussion at lunch today. it was interesting hearing my family tell me how much they love you. you're all they ever want to talk about, and i cant even talk to you. i wish i could talk to you.

just know that im trying.

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 15:56:18 GMT

i got an ipod! and its so fucking beautiful! thank you so much, kyle!

drink down your gin and kerosene

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 14:03:32 GMT

work is kinda fun! i have to wear a headset a la britney spears.

but thats not the fun part. people are cool. yeah.

i disappear

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 16:29:51 GMT

this has been a big week so far. Kyle left for college, i got a job, started it yesterday and kyle has his first class today. i hope it's going well.

i think my job will be a pretty ok thing. at least im hoping. i have to wear a headset. isnt that cool?

ahh, fuck this entry.

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 17:34:12 GMT

i will miss you,sweetie. i love you.

what a way to cut lengthwise.

oh snap

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 23:34:25 GMT

Back off, fun pig! You wanna fun-fucking-arrest me? You better get a fun-fucking-warrant! Otherwise, stay outta my... fun-fucking-face!

i got my hair cut! im hot!

keep the fat men feeding in beverly hills

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 18:29:23 GMT

ughh, im so bored. i'm babysitting my adorable little cousin, Darcey, however fun time is over because she is asleep. drat.

welll, kyle is coming over in just a wee bit, which is always good. he's bringing me a #5. hell yes!

the moon is down by further seems forever is perhaps the best album ever made. and im not even lying! I think tonight is cheesecake factory night for the two of us negroes, which is perhaps going to be FANTASTIC. linda's fudge cake. i highly reccomend it.

kyle got me a knife with my name on it in switzerland. THATS love. true love. or maybe he just knows that i have an affinity for weapons. which i do. he also got me a painting of some mountains with cows on them. he must also know that i love mountain dwelling cows.

well, according to this computer desktop, i could play Barbie Horse Adventure, Barbie Digital Makeover, Dora's Backpack, or the Barbie Fashion Show. choices, choices.